I dreamed a dream in time gone by when hope was high and life worth living

2014-3-13incase you didn’t know, the title of this post is from “les mis”, one of my favourite songs in the whole musical that is depressing as anything!  it’s a very sad part.  I’m not personally sad, i just thought the title fit well with the comic.
I remember when I was about 19, me and my friends Andrew Kruger and Kurt Pearson were going to “Disney church” in Edmonton.  We called it Disney church because everything was shiny and intentional, produced for mass-market appeal to young adults, and the place was basically a meat-market of a thousand plus single attractive Albertans looking for their other half.  BUT!  it was a good time, the preacher was really more like a comedian, the band was amazing, who doesn’t want to hang out with a thousand attractive people, etc.  I remember very distinctly that every week, the theme of the whole service always boiled down to “If you believe, you will achieve your dreams.” and one weekend in particular, Kurt afterwards said “you know that’s crap, right?” and it was the first time in my life someone had told me that dreams can be unrealistic and unachievable.  In school, in the media, even at church, i had been spoon-fed this idea that “I can do anything!”.  Maybe it’s because my parent’s generation wasn’t allowed to dream, but it’s almost like my generation wasn’t allowed to be realistic (an exaggeration, but… is it?)

I could dedicate my life to being an Olympic level gymnast, but it is very unlikely that I personally will ever raise to that level.  There are aspirations within my grasp…  I wonder if those are the ones I am grasping after?

Not to be de-motivational or anything, i just think its better to be motivated to pursue things that are attainable and not some fluffy pipe-dream.  TIME TO RE-EVALUATE MY DREAMS!